Letters to Palak

Dear Palak, I realized this around 6 in the evening, when it hit me that the only time I’d spoken to anyone all day was when I called Pallo in the afternoon. One thing about she stopping loving me is I don’t have to explain where I am, don’t have to say I’m taking a long, obsessive bath or ho…

Dear Palak, I’m a little drunk right now, and maybe that’s why I’m finally expressing the frustration that has been building up inside me for a long time. How did you, of all people, someone so empathetic and kind, become so bad at keeping your word? The first time I told you that I loved …

Dear Palak, Read something beautiful today. Modified it a bit in our context: वो मेरे लिए सही थी,और मुझे उससे प्यार था,उसने ठहरने का वादा नहीं किया,मैंने भी एतबार ज़्यादा नहीं किया,दिल टूटा नहीं पर ज़ख्म था,रिश्ता जुड़ने से पहले ही ख़त्म था… With love, hugs and other things, …

Dearest Palak, The last time I wrote you a letter was in March. The thought that, despite having access to my blog, you never checked the letters even once made me feel there was no point in writing to you anymore. The way our friendship had ended, I thought you hated me. But today, I am the …

Every time I text you, I promise you that this is the last time. And yet I end up texting you the next day. Truth is I miss you like the desert misses the rain, like a cloudy night sky misses the stars, like the sun misses the flowers in the depths of winter… Too poetic, I know. But I really …

“Do you love me? There’s no doubt that I love you but we keep fighting all the time and so it’s important for me to know if you love me… even a bit,” I asked Pallabi. “To be honest, I don’t know if I love you anymore. And trust me, it has nothing to do with you. It’s just that I am finding it ex…

(Give it to her on 4th April 2024) Dear aunty, How are you now? Sutanima said you aren’t keeping well. I hope you are recovering. You are a wonderful woman who has given birth to another wonderful woman, and so it’s just hard to forget your birthday, even though I sometimes forget my own m…

Dear Palak, When I was six, I figured out you meant something to me. We didn't even know what love was back then, but I knew you were special. I'd lost a front tooth and looked pretty funny. The mean kids in class were laughing at me, but you came over and showed me your own mouth, saying, "L…

Dear Palak, I went to Hazrat Nizamuddin Dargah the other day. I came to Delhi for an award ceremony. The organisation I work for was nominated for the award in a certain category and since I was the one who wrote the case study and white paper and all other things that got us nominated, the C…

Dear Palak, How are you? It’s been exactly a month since we last spoke properly. I miss you honestly, deeply, terribly, horribly… I am used to not talking to you for years. But I am not used to not talking to you because you don’t want to. At least, not for the past four years. I wish I co…