12th Mar 2009

Dear Palak,

Today, my aunt called me up and said that you had eloped with someone. That the entire town is talking about you. I don’t know and I don’t care if it’s true. I love you and this is not going to change. But knowing you, I don’t think it’s true. And even if it is true, I still love and respect you. It’s your life, your choices.

Anyway, I didn’t like the way she spoke of this whole matter. I don’t think I will ever be able to respect her.

Having said that, the thought of you being with someone else drives me crazy. I cannot bear the thought that someone else will touch you, make love with you… As I type these words, I feel like smashing my laptop.

And yet, I know that there’s nothing I can do about it. I love you but I never expected anything from you. I always thought I was not good enough for you.

Not that I get to say about what you do with your life and who you go out with, a part of me wishes it was me…

How do I get over you? There are times when I feel like killing myself. But the truth is I want to live. And like I had said, I love to love you. Is it going to be enough for me? I hope it does…

With love, hugs and other things,
P

P.S.: I wish I could talk to you just once.