THE DAY I REALISED I LOVED YOU BOTH

Dear Palak,

Have you ever been in love with two people at the same time? Is that even possible?

For the past few weeks I have been thinking about this situation I am experiencing regarding my newly discovered feelings for Pallabi and my concerns about what this means in the context of my longstanding feelings for you. 

I will be honest with you. I have come to the conclusion that I am in love with both you and Pallabi. Yes, it is possible. 

Human emotions, including love, are complex and can manifest in various forms and intensities. It’s not uncommon for individuals to experience romantic feelings towards more than one person simultaneously. It’s just that most societies are monogamous and we are conditioned to believe that we can love only one person at a time.

Also, because most societies are monogamous, it boils down to the choice you make. One cannot be with two individuals at the same time and so, they choose one over the other.

Neither do I give a flying fuck to the society nor do I have the option to choose. So, I have decided I will not resist myself. I will love you both, even if it is unreciprocated.

Having said that, I still feel guilty about this whole thing. I feel I am betraying you. Ever since I was a kid, I have been in love with only you and now this. But I have to come to terms with it.

I wish I could get a hug from you.With love, hugs and other things,
P