THE DAY I BECAME DESPERATE FOR A REPLY FROM YOU – 1

Dear Palak,

I don’t know if you have read any of the messages I sent. I hope you have or at least someday you do read this one.

You said you are a mature woman now and that you won’t cut contact with me. I don’t know what I did wrong that you changed your mind. All these years, I missed you tremendously and all I have wanted is for you to be there in my life.

Of all people, you should know how it feels like when someone you love does not even reply to your messages. Doesn’t tell you what the other person did to deserve this punishment. You have experienced it yourself. It hurts. I can’t explain how much.

I know you don’t hate me. I also know you don’t like me either. And it doesn’t matter to me. Really. It never did.

You might think that by cutting contact with me, you are actually helping me. You aren’t. It didn’t help 16 years ago. It won’t help now. I know. It’s a choice I made.

I hope you understand that and decide to talk to me again. I will continue to try… I will. Even if I have to wait for another 16 years. Because I know no other way.

I love you. Good night.

P