8th February, 2024

Dear Palak,

On 1st October, 2023, long before we decided to meet, I wrote, “It would be a life worth living, if I could spend just one day with you.” This came true on 14th January, 2024. This should have been enough for me considering that I never thought I would see you again. And yet, it is not.

You are my
blue crayon,
the one I
never have
enough of,
the one I
use to colour
my sky.

a. r. asher

I am still not sure what I did to deserve this silent treatment from you. Could it be about me saying I still have feelings for you? I mean, after all those letters over the last three years, maybe part of you always guessed. Plus, when I did open up, you mentioned you wouldn’t push me away just for that. So, what’s going on?

Could it be because I kept messaging and calling non-stop? I was honestly terrified. You just went silent all of a sudden, right after I admitted my feelings. It felt like history repeating itself from 16 years ago, like you were shutting me out all over again, and I couldn’t bear the thought of losing you again.

If you are thinking that being in touch with me would worsen my marriage situation with Pallabi, you are so wrong. Our strained relationship has nothing to do with you. We have become strangers to each other for reasons that are not in the scope of this letter.

Palak, I was sincere when I mentioned I didn’t want anything more than to stay connected with you. It’s true, I do love you. But that’s beyond my control, right? Please don’t punish me for that. Pushing me away isn’t going to solve anything. It didn’t work out before, and it’s not going to work now.

In a world of temporaries, you are my forever. And all I want is for you to be in my life in whatever manner possible. That’s it. I have been crying every night for the past few weeks. Please don’t take away my best friend from me. Please. I am begging you.

Please reply.

With love, hugs and other things,
P