THE DAY I STOOD UP FOR MY CHOICES

Hey Palak,

I just had this massive fight with my mom over Pallabi. She’s convinced my relationship with her is messing up my studies. I flunked four papers again in my sixth semester. I had like 10 theory exams – six from this semester and four from the last. It was crazy, exams almost every day, and honestly, I barely hit the books. I was too caught up in my writing, painting, and college fest gigs. And yeah, the whole break-up and patch-up saga with Pallabi didn’t help, but I’m not blaming her for it.

Mom’s on this rant about how Pallabi isn’t right for me, and I should just forget her and focus on my studies. It drove me nuts. How can she just decide who’s good or bad for me?

I snapped at her, “Look, it’s not Pallabi’s fault I flunked. I just don’t get engineering. It’s not my thing. And I’m not giving up on Pallabi. I already lost Palak, because I didn’t fight for us, and it’s eating me up. I won’t let that happen again.”

You should’ve seen her face when I said I love you. She was like, “Palak is a good girl. I like her.” Part of me felt happy that she likes you, but then I also got miffed because it felt like she was putting Pallabi down.

Anyway, I just tuned her out after that. 

But you know, if only you loved me back… Do you think I had a chance if I pursued you?

With love, hugs and other things,
P